I went to the doctor yesterday for my bp check and my second 'shot'. Well, my blood pressure was 175/95 and that's taking my medicine and I told them how 'off' I've been and he said it was depression and it's a side effect of the shot. He took me off it and changed my bp medicine. I'm glad to know it will be better soon. It amazes me how drugs can effect you. He said it is not just real common but it happens. I told him about all the stress I'm going thru right now and that I didn't know if it was the shot for sure or just all the stress doing this to me and he said we will just start all over to make sure, he didn't want to take any chances. So, he said we could try something else in a few months but I think I'm one of those people who just can't handle birth control medications.

Bubba said he didn't care what we had to do he just wanted me to feel better and we would deal with the rest. He has been really supportive lately about this and that is strange for him. I guess he has just seen SUCH a difference in me so quickly he knew something wasn't right and he is concerned. I love that. It makes me love him even more. As much as I don't want to be touched I do love that he makes it a point to give me a kiss and or a hug every chance he gets, several times a day. He really didn't do that much before so I think he just wants me to know he loves me and is there. OR he just wants to get lucky (I'm trying to be optimistic here but reality can't be ignored:).

So anyway, Cohen has been running CRAZY, like a little Tasmanian devil or a tornado around the house but last night we put in the Lion King and all of the sudden the super charged little body was sitting on the couch silently, still, watching, it was WONDERFUL!!! Bubba put him to bed in like 15 minutes so I think he was exhausted. He said Cohen didn't fight him one bit, just lwent to sleep. I wish that always happened. We talked to Caleb last night about his new big (queen) bed in his new room when we move into our new house....he wasn't impressed. Right now he sleeps in my bed, right in the middle. Bubba will try to sleep in the middle so he can be close to me and Caleb whines and cries until he moves. It is ridiculous! I can't wait to sleep in MY bed ALONE, well with my husband but you know what I mean. I told him that in our new house only adults were allowed in Mommy and Daddy's room unless the sun was up. I don't' think he bought it, but I'm sticking to this. That's all for now.