...look at yourself in the mirror and wonder what in the world has happened to that face?!?!? This morning while getting ready for work I just had to stop and look and sit...and it was a bit depressing and maybe even disturbing. Lines on my forehead, sunspots, age spots, uneven skin tone, lines, wrinkles, dark circles...it was not pretty. I want my teenage complexion back. My mom always looked young for her age. In her 40's she looks a young thirty something and in her 50's she looked a young 40 something. Why can't I look a young twenty something? I look like I'm about to turn THIRTY and not an hour younger!!! I don't want to get old. I look at myself and see my Granny. I'm afraid I'm going to turn around and be that 95 year old lady...I'm just not ready for that.
Don't try to tell me I'm over reacting because I'm not, really, I'm just writing what I'm feeling. I'm not having a midlife crisis early. I'm fine. Just wrinkly, that's all. I will be THIRTY in 20 days. :( I don't care that my age will be 30, I care that my appearance shows I'm 30. That makes me sad. Maybe I need new make-up to make me feel better, or a new haircut, or some new jewelry...I don't know.
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I am busting a gut over here. Sorry, I am laughing WITH you because you soooo sound like me! I have even begun to avoid looking at my reflection ANYWHERE. I have to walk up to my office & I can see my reflection in the windows...well, I turn the other way now. I feel totally old. Then to top it off, I have these 20-something girls calling me ma'am. WHAT, I am not a ma'am. I hate that. It makes me feel old. These black bags under my eyes don't help. **Whispers**Shhh, don't tell anyone but I priced BOTOX the other day. That is how pathetic I have been feeling. I mean come on, why would I even consider having needles poke me in the face? I MUST be desperate!
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