Thursday, July 31, 2008
Inspired!
I was browsing thru blogs and came across a great one with a terrific idea. I checked out the website suggested and LOVED the idea and I'm going to do it. It's called Project 365 and you take a picture a day for a year. What a wonderful idea. One picture for every day in one place. I love it. So much is changing in my life this fits me perfect. Check out her blog, I listed it as a favorite. She has beautiful pictures. A sunflower, kids, a raspberry. They are simple and beautiful. I'm inspired now to find things to photograph about my days. I only wish I had stumbled across this in December and started it with the new year but better late than never, right! Anyway, just wanted to share!
Packing SUCKS!
I took the day off yesterday to get some major packing done withOUT interruptions. HA HA HA HA, my husband gives me two bills to pay for him after I take all three kids to daycare. Plus I had to get Dr. H's signature on Cohens papers to start Trinity and stop at Wal-mart. I didn't get started until 9am. And I have to pickup kids at 4. I got about 8 boxes packed. Man, this is going to take FOREVER! I have 16 days. 16 days I tell you! What the flap jacks and I gonna do?!?!?!? Breathe.......I will get it done, I will get it done, I will get it done. Oh yeah, our air conditioner froze up on me so I had to turn it off for a little while, and it was stinkin hot outside...and in!!!!
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Kinley
Last night I was putting dinner on the table and she started her shrieking and staring at me. Ugh, kid let me just get dinner on the table and I will get you. SSSHHRRRIIIEEEEKKKK, even louder as if to say "pick me up or I will shatter every window in this house, not to mention your hearing!" I picked her up to save the windows and glass door and put her in her bumbo seat on the table in front of me and that is how I ate dinner! She was happy as a lark, just watching. Stinker. I decided to feed her real food. I gave her pears and cereal. She wasn't much of a fan but managed to choke down maybe two tablespoonsful. She is so funny, poor thing, she gags like I do when I eat pudding. I hate the way it feels in the back of my throat and that is just what she looks like. We will keep working on it. She is 5 and 1/2 months old and not real interested in food! She can't nurse forever!!!! Maybe she will be one of those kids who skips baby food and goes straight to table food. Who knows. Turkey!
This morning after I fed her she stayed awake and just looked right in my eyes and smiled her big milky smile with her teeth showing and I couldn't resist her! I really needed to get in the shower but I absolutely could NOT put her down! Bubba was like, did you shower already and I said no, thinking 'do I look like I have?' but didn't say it. Anyway, I put her on her blanket on the floor and layed with her for a few minutes. She just talked and smiled and reached for my face. I love all her chub! I can't resist her chunky thighs, she is ticklish on them too, it is so funny. She is such a good baby, minus the shriek!
This morning after I fed her she stayed awake and just looked right in my eyes and smiled her big milky smile with her teeth showing and I couldn't resist her! I really needed to get in the shower but I absolutely could NOT put her down! Bubba was like, did you shower already and I said no, thinking 'do I look like I have?' but didn't say it. Anyway, I put her on her blanket on the floor and layed with her for a few minutes. She just talked and smiled and reached for my face. I love all her chub! I can't resist her chunky thighs, she is ticklish on them too, it is so funny. She is such a good baby, minus the shriek!
UGH!!!
Our house is NOT going to be finished by August 15th. I am sooooo mad! I don't know what we are going to do. Live with Judie for a week or two, ugh. It was SUPPOSED to be finished by July 15 and they moved it to August 15 and that is the day we close on our house. Our construction load goes out on the 19th so we have to pay BIG interest until they finish!!!!! I AM PISSED! So yesterday Bubba and I go to the house to check progress on the floor and..........there is NONE! The floor guy said he needs three weeks and then the touch up people and the cleaning people need another week and this was as of yesterday so that puts us at August 28th. The wonderful lady who bought our house and is letting us stay there until the 15th will be moving in that day so we are out....I'm peeved.
Monday, July 28, 2008
Dreaded Monday.
I hate Mondays! It just so happens to be the day my children sleep past 7am and I have to get up! UGH! Well, I checked my blood pressure this morning and it's really good my heart rate is a wee bit high but overall I guess I will live. Saturday was day 2 of my new bp med and I had a terrible headache. I felt bad all day. I think it was the medicine. I decided to take it at night so Sunday I had to go without all day and boy could I tell. Yesterday evening Bubba took a load to the storage building and Caleb decided to go crazy....I mean CRAZY! But of course not until I picked up the phone to call my mom. I had to call her back....twice. He was running in circles in the living room yelling 'I'm SPIDERMAN, i'M SPIDERMAN' so loud the other two kids were just looking at him like he lost his stinkin mind. He refused to listen to me so he got in trouble. Big trouble. I had to spank him, which was not a grand idea given my bp issue. Afterward, I was so upset with him I was shaking, I couldn't take a drink of my tea I was shaking so badly. I wonder how high my bp got. Anyhow, Bubba came home and restored order. I HATE that. Why can't he just listen to ME then he wouldn't get into trouble!
Friday we got a note from his teacher. He has been having behavior issues at school now. He hit a classmate on the head and was wondering around without permission AND fighting over 'line leader' and 'door holder' these are BELOVED positions in line for him. He can't be either one for a week. We had a talk with him and *HOPEFULLY* he will be better. He did have a good weekend other than the fit when bubba left. Caleb even did the dishes last night! YES, he got the chair pushed it to the sink and washed off all the dinner dishes so all I had to do was put them in the dishwasher. It was such a huge help. He loves playing in the water mostly but it was a tremendous help. He was trying to make up for giving me such a hard time earlier. He apologized a couple of times too. It seems like they are good when it's all of us but when one leaves or someone else comes over they go totally NUTS! Regina stopped by to drop off some stuff and they went crazy. There is no telling what people think. I would probably be like....whew, we are so NOT coming over here anymore, those kids are out of control! Poor Kim and Bubba! Heehee. No but really, are all kids like this???? Bubba thinks he is having terrible twos with Cohen. I don't know what to think.
Anyhow, my sweet little Kinser cut another tooth! Her top right, soooo cute! I felt terrible for her though, she was so fussy and her little eyes were all red. Ohhhhh, sweet girl I just had to hold her tons and tons. If I put her down she would shriek like a banshee! I'm waiting for the windows to bust or the glasses to crack in the cabinet. Whew, that girl can hit notes that will make dogs howl!
Friday we got a note from his teacher. He has been having behavior issues at school now. He hit a classmate on the head and was wondering around without permission AND fighting over 'line leader' and 'door holder' these are BELOVED positions in line for him. He can't be either one for a week. We had a talk with him and *HOPEFULLY* he will be better. He did have a good weekend other than the fit when bubba left. Caleb even did the dishes last night! YES, he got the chair pushed it to the sink and washed off all the dinner dishes so all I had to do was put them in the dishwasher. It was such a huge help. He loves playing in the water mostly but it was a tremendous help. He was trying to make up for giving me such a hard time earlier. He apologized a couple of times too. It seems like they are good when it's all of us but when one leaves or someone else comes over they go totally NUTS! Regina stopped by to drop off some stuff and they went crazy. There is no telling what people think. I would probably be like....whew, we are so NOT coming over here anymore, those kids are out of control! Poor Kim and Bubba! Heehee. No but really, are all kids like this???? Bubba thinks he is having terrible twos with Cohen. I don't know what to think.
Anyhow, my sweet little Kinser cut another tooth! Her top right, soooo cute! I felt terrible for her though, she was so fussy and her little eyes were all red. Ohhhhh, sweet girl I just had to hold her tons and tons. If I put her down she would shriek like a banshee! I'm waiting for the windows to bust or the glasses to crack in the cabinet. Whew, that girl can hit notes that will make dogs howl!
Friday, July 25, 2008
Last night
Yesterday Sally picked up Jonas because Jenni was sick and they came over and played. At first Kinley was mesmerized by him. Oh look, someone my age! Jonas did nothing but stare at the boys. Oh my, big kids! He goes to First Baptist so he is with babies all day and Kinley is vise versa. She loved watching him and he the big boys. Sally put Jonas in Kinley's jumparoo and holy cow! She was giving him the dirtiest look a five month old can muster up. Surely she wasn't jealous...or was she. She never made a peep just watched him as he played. She had a frown and her eyebrows were very dramatic. She did not like him playing in her jumparoo!!! It was so funny. He didn't quite know what to think, I think the noise and commotion that go along with a 2 year old and a 4 year old were a bit overwhelming to him. He only cried a few times and just for a minute.
The boys had a rough evening for some reason. They were little devils. All I did from the moment we walked in the door was put someone in time-out or get onto someone or spank or put one in the room. SHEESH, it was exhausting! I bought them each a surprise from Target and gave it to them when we got home, big mistake, I should have given it to them at the end of the night if they behaved. I bought a (life like feeling) frog and lizard. I let Caleb choose my left or right hand. He chose and was happy until he saw what was in my other hand and wanted that so I let them trade. Another big mistake. Cohen wanted the lizard. I can't win for losing. Before the night was over we had taken away the toys, Caleb was grounded from furniture and Cohen was growling at me from the corner and going to bed early.
The boys had a rough evening for some reason. They were little devils. All I did from the moment we walked in the door was put someone in time-out or get onto someone or spank or put one in the room. SHEESH, it was exhausting! I bought them each a surprise from Target and gave it to them when we got home, big mistake, I should have given it to them at the end of the night if they behaved. I bought a (life like feeling) frog and lizard. I let Caleb choose my left or right hand. He chose and was happy until he saw what was in my other hand and wanted that so I let them trade. Another big mistake. Cohen wanted the lizard. I can't win for losing. Before the night was over we had taken away the toys, Caleb was grounded from furniture and Cohen was growling at me from the corner and going to bed early.
****Note to self, run....run as far as possible!!!****
I can't wait for the 'terrible twos' and the 'whiny' fours to be over! The twos have just begun.
Dear Lord if you can hear me, please grant me what it takes to survive toddler hood!!!
I went to the doctor yesterday for my bp check and my second 'shot'. Well, my blood pressure was 175/95 and that's taking my medicine and I told them how 'off' I've been and he said it was depression and it's a side effect of the shot. He took me off it and changed my bp medicine. I'm glad to know it will be better soon. It amazes me how drugs can effect you. He said it is not just real common but it happens. I told him about all the stress I'm going thru right now and that I didn't know if it was the shot for sure or just all the stress doing this to me and he said we will just start all over to make sure, he didn't want to take any chances. So, he said we could try something else in a few months but I think I'm one of those people who just can't handle birth control medications.
Bubba said he didn't care what we had to do he just wanted me to feel better and we would deal with the rest. He has been really supportive lately about this and that is strange for him. I guess he has just seen SUCH a difference in me so quickly he knew something wasn't right and he is concerned. I love that. It makes me love him even more. As much as I don't want to be touched I do love that he makes it a point to give me a kiss and or a hug every chance he gets, several times a day. He really didn't do that much before so I think he just wants me to know he loves me and is there. OR he just wants to get lucky (I'm trying to be optimistic here but reality can't be ignored:).
So anyway, Cohen has been running CRAZY, like a little Tasmanian devil or a tornado around the house but last night we put in the Lion King and all of the sudden the super charged little body was sitting on the couch silently, still, watching, it was WONDERFUL!!! Bubba put him to bed in like 15 minutes so I think he was exhausted. He said Cohen didn't fight him one bit, just lwent to sleep. I wish that always happened. We talked to Caleb last night about his new big (queen) bed in his new room when we move into our new house....he wasn't impressed. Right now he sleeps in my bed, right in the middle. Bubba will try to sleep in the middle so he can be close to me and Caleb whines and cries until he moves. It is ridiculous! I can't wait to sleep in MY bed ALONE, well with my husband but you know what I mean. I told him that in our new house only adults were allowed in Mommy and Daddy's room unless the sun was up. I don't' think he bought it, but I'm sticking to this. That's all for now.
Bubba said he didn't care what we had to do he just wanted me to feel better and we would deal with the rest. He has been really supportive lately about this and that is strange for him. I guess he has just seen SUCH a difference in me so quickly he knew something wasn't right and he is concerned. I love that. It makes me love him even more. As much as I don't want to be touched I do love that he makes it a point to give me a kiss and or a hug every chance he gets, several times a day. He really didn't do that much before so I think he just wants me to know he loves me and is there. OR he just wants to get lucky (I'm trying to be optimistic here but reality can't be ignored:).
So anyway, Cohen has been running CRAZY, like a little Tasmanian devil or a tornado around the house but last night we put in the Lion King and all of the sudden the super charged little body was sitting on the couch silently, still, watching, it was WONDERFUL!!! Bubba put him to bed in like 15 minutes so I think he was exhausted. He said Cohen didn't fight him one bit, just lwent to sleep. I wish that always happened. We talked to Caleb last night about his new big (queen) bed in his new room when we move into our new house....he wasn't impressed. Right now he sleeps in my bed, right in the middle. Bubba will try to sleep in the middle so he can be close to me and Caleb whines and cries until he moves. It is ridiculous! I can't wait to sleep in MY bed ALONE, well with my husband but you know what I mean. I told him that in our new house only adults were allowed in Mommy and Daddy's room unless the sun was up. I don't' think he bought it, but I'm sticking to this. That's all for now.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Random pictures!!!!
She loves her big brother!!!!!
I love this one of Cohen!
Kinley, my little cutie, taken last saturday!
Me and my little men!
My big beautiful blue eyed thumb sucker!!!
My mom made us do it!!!!
Again, My mom made me do it!!!
My mom, dressed up at Miss Hatties!
Kristi, Me and Renee at my birthday party!
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
No title...
I am all alone today. Literally! Sally is off. Paul is at Brice's tennis thing. Just me and Kidd Craddock and he is leaving in about 20 seconds. We received the final verdict on our job yesterday. Meet your new part-time technician. Sally too. We now have to pay more for benefits and accrue less pto and no sick time. Sally had 140 hours of sick time built up in case something ever happened and she has to forfeit ALL of it! That is just STUPID! Nothing about this is fair. Sally told me I will work 30 hours a week and she will work 10 and use what is left of her pto to equal what she needs. I thank her for that. Part timers get 24 hours a week but they want us to flex down to 20 until further notice. No more than 40 hours for our department. Ummmm hello! We have bills to pay! I'm super stressed about all this. Sally is looking for another job and has applied to some. I feel terrible for her. I hope she finds something awesome so she can tell this place to kiss her butt and give Steve a piece of her mind. I hate this place.
We have a new house to pay for in one month, my job literally hangs by a thread, I feel like a door mat and I have a million things to do that I can't muster up the energy to get done. I am totally in a rut and I don't even care to get myself out. What does that mean?!?! Bubba keeps asking me if I'm ok. I just say 'yes why' and he gives me a look, he knows I'm lying. I just dont want to get into it. I don't have the energy or the care to do so. I have an appointment with Dr. Cravy tomorrow to recheck my bp and get another shot. I'm going to ask him to up my prozac. I don't know if that will help but I'll give it a try.
This all started when I got a big fat nothing for my birthday from Bubba. I know it sounds terrible but this is the first year EVER that he didn't take the time to show me how much I mean to him. Yes he gave me a birthday party, but where was my card at least? Why didn't he make dinner or order out, or set up a sitter and take me out on THAT day? Simply put, he didn't care to take the time for me. And that hurts. The second thing was Caleb's comment about wanting me to die. I realize he is 4 and didn't fully understand what he was saying...or did he. This is one smart kid we are talking about here. He chose his words... I have a surprise for you mommy, do you want to know what it is....(he waited for me to say yes)...for you to die. Never missed a beat. Then my job. I do not matter enough to keep around. It's all about money and numbers and the CEO. I do not matter here. 6 years.....
It seems to be coming from all directions. You do not matter. You are not important enough. You are here to do a job....wife, mother, maid, cook, chauffeur, pharmacy technician. I don't feel there is a team anywhere anymore. Just me...to get my work done, but I can't get there either. I'm going to pump now. Add that to my list of jobs...
We have a new house to pay for in one month, my job literally hangs by a thread, I feel like a door mat and I have a million things to do that I can't muster up the energy to get done. I am totally in a rut and I don't even care to get myself out. What does that mean?!?! Bubba keeps asking me if I'm ok. I just say 'yes why' and he gives me a look, he knows I'm lying. I just dont want to get into it. I don't have the energy or the care to do so. I have an appointment with Dr. Cravy tomorrow to recheck my bp and get another shot. I'm going to ask him to up my prozac. I don't know if that will help but I'll give it a try.
This all started when I got a big fat nothing for my birthday from Bubba. I know it sounds terrible but this is the first year EVER that he didn't take the time to show me how much I mean to him. Yes he gave me a birthday party, but where was my card at least? Why didn't he make dinner or order out, or set up a sitter and take me out on THAT day? Simply put, he didn't care to take the time for me. And that hurts. The second thing was Caleb's comment about wanting me to die. I realize he is 4 and didn't fully understand what he was saying...or did he. This is one smart kid we are talking about here. He chose his words... I have a surprise for you mommy, do you want to know what it is....(he waited for me to say yes)...for you to die. Never missed a beat. Then my job. I do not matter enough to keep around. It's all about money and numbers and the CEO. I do not matter here. 6 years.....
It seems to be coming from all directions. You do not matter. You are not important enough. You are here to do a job....wife, mother, maid, cook, chauffeur, pharmacy technician. I don't feel there is a team anywhere anymore. Just me...to get my work done, but I can't get there either. I'm going to pump now. Add that to my list of jobs...
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Sticks and stones..
may break my bones but words will never hurt me....the person who came up with this has never heard the following words from their 4 year old son.
Yesterday I was washing the dishes and Bubba was running a bath for the boys. Caleb came to me and started whining that he wanted Cohen to take a bath first because he didn't want to take one. Here is how the conversation went...
Honey, go take your bath because Daddy and I have a surprise for you!!
What is it??
I can't tell you, it's a surprise, the faster you get done with bath the faster you will find out...
What is THE SURPRISE? (getting angry)
Caleb it is a surprise, you will find out after bath!
Well, I HAVE A SURPRISE FOR YOU MOMMY.....DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT IT IS??? (The look on his face is unforgettable, he was so angry)
What is your surprise.....
FOR YOU TO DIE!
Ok, I was in SHOCK. I turned the water off and looked at his VERY angry face and said YOU DID NOT JUST SAY THAT TO ME!!!! He knew what he said was serious because he ran to the couch and cried. Sally was holding Kinley and heard some of what he said. Bubba came out of the bathroom and I told him, he put Caleb in the shower and I called my mom. I didn't know what to do or how to handle this. I was heartbroken and in complete shock. My mom couldn't believe her ears. She said I needed to talk to him and explain what he said and what it meant and make him feel bad so he understands. So I did. He screamed the entire time I was trying to talk to him. He wouldn't tell me who said it. He just kept yelling "let me out and I will calm down" I was just sitting on the floor, not touching him not holding him down just sitting there. At one point he ran to the door and yelled under it "PLEASE LET ME OUT, MOMMY IS BEING SO MEAN TO ME!" I just kept asking why he was so mad. He couldn't tell me.
I kept waiting for the 'breakthrough' like they have on Nanny 911 that would make everything magically better....it never came. I didn't' get anywhere. So I let him out. He did apologize but I couldn't tell if it was just to get out or he really was sorry.
He came to sit with me while I put Kinley to sleep and he said he was sorry and I asked 'for what' he said for saying that to you. He apologized several more times so I believe now that he is sorry and didn't mean it. But it has stuck in my head like nothing else. I fear I'm failing him. Honestly, if he talks to me like this I am failing. Last night Bubba told me to talk a bath (which is a treat for me, I usually shower in 10 mins in the am) I was obviously upset and needed alone time, so I thought and prayed and thought a little more, I came to the conclusion that I need to go to church on Sunday. I don't know if it was just my conscience talking or what but I really think he can help. I'm going to find books today to help too. Now if the message on Sunday is about parenting, I may have a heart attack but that is my plan. I need help. I need prayers. I need something, I'm heart broken in every aspect of the word. I couldn't sleep at all last night. I am so hurt by his words. How would you feel if your child said he wanted you to die?
I have put every ounce of myself into him and his brother and sister. Given them everything, cared for them since day one, loved them, sang to them, played with them, held them, doctored them, everthing! Why would he ever say this to me? I realize he is a child and they say things they don't mean they just know they are angry words and how to use them, Boy did he! I can't just brush this off, it has stuck in my heart forever. I am crushed, hurt, sad, upset and angry. I want this to be fixed. Caleb has seemed so angry lately. Cohen is out of control also. He has officially turned two and it is going to be a heck of a year with him but Caleb has me worried. What will I do when he is 16? Will he hate me? Am I over reacting? I don't know...
Yesterday I was washing the dishes and Bubba was running a bath for the boys. Caleb came to me and started whining that he wanted Cohen to take a bath first because he didn't want to take one. Here is how the conversation went...
Honey, go take your bath because Daddy and I have a surprise for you!!
What is it??
I can't tell you, it's a surprise, the faster you get done with bath the faster you will find out...
What is THE SURPRISE? (getting angry)
Caleb it is a surprise, you will find out after bath!
Well, I HAVE A SURPRISE FOR YOU MOMMY.....DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT IT IS??? (The look on his face is unforgettable, he was so angry)
What is your surprise.....
FOR YOU TO DIE!
Ok, I was in SHOCK. I turned the water off and looked at his VERY angry face and said YOU DID NOT JUST SAY THAT TO ME!!!! He knew what he said was serious because he ran to the couch and cried. Sally was holding Kinley and heard some of what he said. Bubba came out of the bathroom and I told him, he put Caleb in the shower and I called my mom. I didn't know what to do or how to handle this. I was heartbroken and in complete shock. My mom couldn't believe her ears. She said I needed to talk to him and explain what he said and what it meant and make him feel bad so he understands. So I did. He screamed the entire time I was trying to talk to him. He wouldn't tell me who said it. He just kept yelling "let me out and I will calm down" I was just sitting on the floor, not touching him not holding him down just sitting there. At one point he ran to the door and yelled under it "PLEASE LET ME OUT, MOMMY IS BEING SO MEAN TO ME!" I just kept asking why he was so mad. He couldn't tell me.
I kept waiting for the 'breakthrough' like they have on Nanny 911 that would make everything magically better....it never came. I didn't' get anywhere. So I let him out. He did apologize but I couldn't tell if it was just to get out or he really was sorry.
He came to sit with me while I put Kinley to sleep and he said he was sorry and I asked 'for what' he said for saying that to you. He apologized several more times so I believe now that he is sorry and didn't mean it. But it has stuck in my head like nothing else. I fear I'm failing him. Honestly, if he talks to me like this I am failing. Last night Bubba told me to talk a bath (which is a treat for me, I usually shower in 10 mins in the am) I was obviously upset and needed alone time, so I thought and prayed and thought a little more, I came to the conclusion that I need to go to church on Sunday. I don't know if it was just my conscience talking or what but I really think he can help. I'm going to find books today to help too. Now if the message on Sunday is about parenting, I may have a heart attack but that is my plan. I need help. I need prayers. I need something, I'm heart broken in every aspect of the word. I couldn't sleep at all last night. I am so hurt by his words. How would you feel if your child said he wanted you to die?
I have put every ounce of myself into him and his brother and sister. Given them everything, cared for them since day one, loved them, sang to them, played with them, held them, doctored them, everthing! Why would he ever say this to me? I realize he is a child and they say things they don't mean they just know they are angry words and how to use them, Boy did he! I can't just brush this off, it has stuck in my heart forever. I am crushed, hurt, sad, upset and angry. I want this to be fixed. Caleb has seemed so angry lately. Cohen is out of control also. He has officially turned two and it is going to be a heck of a year with him but Caleb has me worried. What will I do when he is 16? Will he hate me? Am I over reacting? I don't know...
Monday, July 21, 2008
Troubles....
Kinley has cut another tooth!! She has two on bottom and one of her top ones is poking out a bit! My poor girl, she was super fussy yesterday and the entire time I thought it was her tummy (cause I had spicy chicken wings on Saturday night) and it turned out to be her teeth. I gave her teething tablets and she calmed down almost immediately! Amazing stuff!!
Cohen Parker was HORRIBLE this weekend! That kid, I'm telling you, if this is terrible twos HOLY CRAP what a year this will be! He has such a thick head and a strong willed mind he is going to do what he wants regardless of what anyone tell him! I bet I spanked him 3 different times, put him in his room 3 times and time outs at least 50 times! He smacked his sister on the head (which unleashed the beast in me) and kept on beating up his brother! He is soooo strong they don't stand a chance! I need to figure out a way to teach him to communicate and maybe he will be less aggressive. He is starting to talk more so I'm praying that will help him get thru this. Pray for us! We need it!
Caleb has been super emotional and we don't understand why. He is good one minute and crying the next. I guess if my two year old brother beat me up I'd cry too! I'm sure it has to do with attention, we were so busy trying to discipline Cohen and console Kinley there wasn't much left for Caleb. Caleb tries to talk to Breaks my heart. Bubba and I talked this morning and we are going to establish game time after dinner. Maybe that will help. Usually after dinner we do bath then tv/play time then bed. We are going to rearrange things a bit. When we get in our new house it will be much better because we will have more room to do different things. Any suggestions would be very much appreciated!!!!!
Cohen Parker was HORRIBLE this weekend! That kid, I'm telling you, if this is terrible twos HOLY CRAP what a year this will be! He has such a thick head and a strong willed mind he is going to do what he wants regardless of what anyone tell him! I bet I spanked him 3 different times, put him in his room 3 times and time outs at least 50 times! He smacked his sister on the head (which unleashed the beast in me) and kept on beating up his brother! He is soooo strong they don't stand a chance! I need to figure out a way to teach him to communicate and maybe he will be less aggressive. He is starting to talk more so I'm praying that will help him get thru this. Pray for us! We need it!
Caleb has been super emotional and we don't understand why. He is good one minute and crying the next. I guess if my two year old brother beat me up I'd cry too! I'm sure it has to do with attention, we were so busy trying to discipline Cohen and console Kinley there wasn't much left for Caleb. Caleb tries to talk to Breaks my heart. Bubba and I talked this morning and we are going to establish game time after dinner. Maybe that will help. Usually after dinner we do bath then tv/play time then bed. We are going to rearrange things a bit. When we get in our new house it will be much better because we will have more room to do different things. Any suggestions would be very much appreciated!!!!!
Friday, July 18, 2008
My morning!
Well, I'm in a better mood today...so far! Hee hee. I was late to work again today, Cohen was on slow-poke time! He had to gather 4 monster trucks, a small turtle, his milk cup, two cars, and his beloved Lion King DVD before we could leave this morning. So imagine in your head, me holding Kinley in her car seat, my pump on my shoulder, a gift for Grace(who turned one), Kinley's milk bag and the keys standing at the door waiting for him to gather his 'treasures'. SHHEEEESH! COME ON ALREADY! I don't know how I managed to get that all in the car in one trip but I did it, why you ask????? I don't know, I already had it all in my hands, why drop half of it just to come back again and.....I didn't think of it.
Anyway, I made it and all is fine. I'm so glad it's friday!!!!
Anyway, I made it and all is fine. I'm so glad it's friday!!!!
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Things that irritate me
Today there seem to be a few...
1. Whining!
2. the words "Mrs. Brenda said"
3. stupid people
4. bad drivers
5. road construction
6. people who feel they need to LOOK at road construction!
7. Drivers who stare at me like I'm dressed as a chicken or something! WHAT ARE YOU STARING AT????
8. Being late for work....again!
9. My house being torn apart in the mornings, what goes on while I'm getting ready? GEEZ!
10. My husband trying to be lovey dovey and kissy kissy in the morning....HEELLLLO, I JUST WOKE UP - BACK THE FLAP JACKS OFF!
As you can tell I'm not in the best of moods today. Partly due to the note we received from our sons teacher yesterday. It went something like this....
Dear Mr. and Mrs. Davis,
Caleb has had a splinter in his foot for three days now. It is quite distracting for him. There is a medication called ictamal that will draw it out overnight, you can get it at wal-mart or albertsons. It sure is a help with the little ones. Blah blah blah. I can't remember all of it but basically it was saying ' Hey lady, take care of your kids foot!' I have NOT neglected my child. We have tried to get the damn splinter out ever day, it won't budge! I have watched him jump off the couch and land square on that foot and not flinch a muscle, run and play as if it were not there.....UNTIL he is asked to do something or he wants attention, THEN he falls on the floor like he just got the thing and is in terrible pain and should be rushed to the ER. GIVE ME A FREAKIN BREAK! He is a drama queen like no other. He uses it for attention. I'm sure Mrs. Brenda feels so sorry for the poor little boy whose parents neglect his sore, infected, about to fall off little foot!
Let me say the first thing that offended us about the letter was the "Dear MR. and Mrs. Davis" part! She always calls us Kim and Bubba and she has done so on notes before so what the hell! I wrote her a note back this morning and it wasn't very pretty. I SO wanted to start with "Dear Mrs. Naul" but I didn't. I'm going to make an appointment with Dr. Herbert and let him deal with it once and for all. I told Caleb this and he started whining "Noooooooooo, it will hurt!" I don't care.
I talked to the Pharmacist at walmart yesterday ( they are having a hard time getting the ictamal stuff in, they were out) he said his son had the same thing when he was five and he had to dig it out with a needle and his son remembers it to this day. He also said the ictamal doesn't work on splinters, it is more for bringing a boil or a pimple to a head and his body should eventually reject the splinter on it's own if I wanted to wait it out. SHAAA, no thanks not with my drama queen for a son. There is NO TELLING what he told his teacher! Yesterday he came home with a dressing on his foot! A DRESSING! Give me a freaking break! He was sooo mad when we took it off to try and get it out. 'NO that is a special band aid it's supposed to stay on Mrs. Brenda saaaaaiiddd"
Anyway, I'm irritated to the max today!
1. Whining!
2. the words "Mrs. Brenda said"
3. stupid people
4. bad drivers
5. road construction
6. people who feel they need to LOOK at road construction!
7. Drivers who stare at me like I'm dressed as a chicken or something! WHAT ARE YOU STARING AT????
8. Being late for work....again!
9. My house being torn apart in the mornings, what goes on while I'm getting ready? GEEZ!
10. My husband trying to be lovey dovey and kissy kissy in the morning....HEELLLLO, I JUST WOKE UP - BACK THE FLAP JACKS OFF!
As you can tell I'm not in the best of moods today. Partly due to the note we received from our sons teacher yesterday. It went something like this....
Dear Mr. and Mrs. Davis,
Caleb has had a splinter in his foot for three days now. It is quite distracting for him. There is a medication called ictamal that will draw it out overnight, you can get it at wal-mart or albertsons. It sure is a help with the little ones. Blah blah blah. I can't remember all of it but basically it was saying ' Hey lady, take care of your kids foot!' I have NOT neglected my child. We have tried to get the damn splinter out ever day, it won't budge! I have watched him jump off the couch and land square on that foot and not flinch a muscle, run and play as if it were not there.....UNTIL he is asked to do something or he wants attention, THEN he falls on the floor like he just got the thing and is in terrible pain and should be rushed to the ER. GIVE ME A FREAKIN BREAK! He is a drama queen like no other. He uses it for attention. I'm sure Mrs. Brenda feels so sorry for the poor little boy whose parents neglect his sore, infected, about to fall off little foot!
Let me say the first thing that offended us about the letter was the "Dear MR. and Mrs. Davis" part! She always calls us Kim and Bubba and she has done so on notes before so what the hell! I wrote her a note back this morning and it wasn't very pretty. I SO wanted to start with "Dear Mrs. Naul" but I didn't. I'm going to make an appointment with Dr. Herbert and let him deal with it once and for all. I told Caleb this and he started whining "Noooooooooo, it will hurt!" I don't care.
I talked to the Pharmacist at walmart yesterday ( they are having a hard time getting the ictamal stuff in, they were out) he said his son had the same thing when he was five and he had to dig it out with a needle and his son remembers it to this day. He also said the ictamal doesn't work on splinters, it is more for bringing a boil or a pimple to a head and his body should eventually reject the splinter on it's own if I wanted to wait it out. SHAAA, no thanks not with my drama queen for a son. There is NO TELLING what he told his teacher! Yesterday he came home with a dressing on his foot! A DRESSING! Give me a freaking break! He was sooo mad when we took it off to try and get it out. 'NO that is a special band aid it's supposed to stay on Mrs. Brenda saaaaaiiddd"
Anyway, I'm irritated to the max today!
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Job problems..
your guess is as good as mine. We are waiting for them to talk with Don. When he makes his decision, Paul will make his and it will have a trickle effect. Sally wants to take the 24hrs and find a second job but I'm afraid they won't let her work 24 and she will loose medical and I REALLY don't want that to happen. I'm at a loss. I decided not to think about it anymore until Don makes his final decision, then I will worry. That's all I know for now.
Happy Hump day!
Today is crazy. Cohen has an unexplained fever, my job is hanging by a thread and I dropped my cell phone in the toilet when I was pumping this morning!!!!! HOLY CRAP!!! The whole thing happened in slow motion. I put it on top of my pump while setting everything up I reached for it to set the timer and fumbled in slow motion right into the toilet! I had a minor heart attach. I called Bubba when I finished pumping and told him, he wasn't as upset as I thought he would be. He is supposed to call me back with the name of our service lady to see what I need to do to get a new one.
What am I going to do without a phone?!?!? Usually it would be fine but Cohen is funny today and may need to come home if his fever returns. My sitter called and said it was coming back but it was nap time and she thought he would go pretty fast so she gave him Tylenol and put him down. We will see. Poor little man. Nothing worse than a sick baby! I would give anything to take their place but what mother wouldn't?!? He has NO other symptoms, just fever. Weird!
Caleb left this morning pleading with me to pick him up right after lunch so he didnt' have to lay down for nap. The conversation went something like this....
Mom, pleeeeaaase pick me up right after lunch, I don't wanna take a nap!!!!!
Honey, I have to work, I will pick you up this afternoon
NOOOOOOOOO, I don't wanna take nap today, I just woke up I took nap alllllll night!
Tell your teacher you don't want to sleep, maybe she will let you just lay there awake!
I did and she said I have to lay down.....I don't waaaaant tooooooooooooooo, please Mommy! Pick me up at lunch, PLEEEEEASE! I dont wanna lay down......whaaaaaaaa.
Caleb, we all have to do things we don't want to. If your teacher says you have to take a nap then you have to. I will pick you up this afternoon.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
(Screaming child exits with tears rolling down his face.)
I am the worst mom in the world. Add me to the list would ya?! Geez. This is the second day he has pulled this. I don't know what the deal is I guess I'm going to have to talk with his teacher and find out what's going on at naptime!
What am I going to do without a phone?!?!? Usually it would be fine but Cohen is funny today and may need to come home if his fever returns. My sitter called and said it was coming back but it was nap time and she thought he would go pretty fast so she gave him Tylenol and put him down. We will see. Poor little man. Nothing worse than a sick baby! I would give anything to take their place but what mother wouldn't?!? He has NO other symptoms, just fever. Weird!
Caleb left this morning pleading with me to pick him up right after lunch so he didnt' have to lay down for nap. The conversation went something like this....
Mom, pleeeeaaase pick me up right after lunch, I don't wanna take a nap!!!!!
Honey, I have to work, I will pick you up this afternoon
NOOOOOOOOO, I don't wanna take nap today, I just woke up I took nap alllllll night!
Tell your teacher you don't want to sleep, maybe she will let you just lay there awake!
I did and she said I have to lay down.....I don't waaaaant tooooooooooooooo, please Mommy! Pick me up at lunch, PLEEEEEASE! I dont wanna lay down......whaaaaaaaa.
Caleb, we all have to do things we don't want to. If your teacher says you have to take a nap then you have to. I will pick you up this afternoon.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
(Screaming child exits with tears rolling down his face.)
I am the worst mom in the world. Add me to the list would ya?! Geez. This is the second day he has pulled this. I don't know what the deal is I guess I'm going to have to talk with his teacher and find out what's going on at naptime!
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
So now I'm freaking out...
Bare with me because not much of this will make sense but we got our 'staffing matrix' today and it's pretty much TERRIBLE news. We can have 1.3 FTE's tech (full time employee's) and our staff pharmacist can only work 8 hours a week. This means he will quit because he was just cut back to 32 hours a week and needs extra money. Which means Paul will leave because he does not want to work all hours and take call 24/7, can't say that I blame him.
Back to the tech problem... One of us can work 40 hours and the other only 13 hours a week. This means the 13 hr tech will lose all benefits. I tried to work it where we both work the minimum to keep benefits and we still need 3 more hours to make it work. She would get 32 and I would get 24. HR said it would not work. We can't have two part timers or one full and one part timer it makes the numbers off. SO, I'M OFFICIALLY PANICKING! I have to talk to Bubba today. If Don leaves Paul will leave which means we will have to have a rent a pharmacist which means I'm out of here which means Sally is out too. This sucks to every extent of the word.
Can I afford to work part time, can I afford to work less than that, can Bubba carry us on medical, I don't know the answers....
Back to the tech problem... One of us can work 40 hours and the other only 13 hours a week. This means the 13 hr tech will lose all benefits. I tried to work it where we both work the minimum to keep benefits and we still need 3 more hours to make it work. She would get 32 and I would get 24. HR said it would not work. We can't have two part timers or one full and one part timer it makes the numbers off. SO, I'M OFFICIALLY PANICKING! I have to talk to Bubba today. If Don leaves Paul will leave which means we will have to have a rent a pharmacist which means I'm out of here which means Sally is out too. This sucks to every extent of the word.
Can I afford to work part time, can I afford to work less than that, can Bubba carry us on medical, I don't know the answers....
Disappointed
Well today I'm feeling a little blue. Yesterday was my 30th birthday and I didn't get anything from my husband. I know I sound like a spoiled brat but it is eating me up inside. He didn't even get me a card or one for the kids to sign! That really makes me sad. I feel like I must not matter enough for him to take the time to pick out a stinking card!!!
This morning he was looking at some pictures I printed from my party for my sister and he said "You know there isn't one of you and me" I looked at him and said "hmmm, I'll put that right next to my birthday card!" He looked at me and said "KIM, YOU WILL GET A CARD" to which I replied "Yesterday was my birthday!" If he gets me a card now, it will not be the same because it will be obvious he did it only because I said something. He could have given me one at my party like every one else, he could have given me one yesterday but he didn't...it's not like this snuck up on him. It just didn't matter enough....
I'm sure I sound horrible to anyone reading this but he has ALWAYS made a big deal of birthdays and given me something great and this year he did head up a surprise birthday party but he just told people what to do, all he did was drive me there. Don't get me wrong...I LOVED the party and it was a wonderful idea and I thank him for that but.....I wanted a card with hand prints and doodling from my kids and a card from him and a memorable gift that would last a lifetime and make me feel special would have been a bonus and made my day. I don't know.....I have always been able to say "LOOK WHAT BUBBA GAVE ME!" Not this year. Not for my 30th. Not when I'm feeling sorry for myself. I didn't even get a 'Honey, I'm so sorry I didn't get you a special gift but since we are building this house I really don't have the extra money' OR ' Hon, I'm so sorry your gift didn't get here in time but it will be here soon' or a simple "I'm sorry I didn't get you anything." I don't know, I'm here with my head hanging low and a heavy heart. I will get over it......
This morning he was looking at some pictures I printed from my party for my sister and he said "You know there isn't one of you and me" I looked at him and said "hmmm, I'll put that right next to my birthday card!" He looked at me and said "KIM, YOU WILL GET A CARD" to which I replied "Yesterday was my birthday!" If he gets me a card now, it will not be the same because it will be obvious he did it only because I said something. He could have given me one at my party like every one else, he could have given me one yesterday but he didn't...it's not like this snuck up on him. It just didn't matter enough....
I'm sure I sound horrible to anyone reading this but he has ALWAYS made a big deal of birthdays and given me something great and this year he did head up a surprise birthday party but he just told people what to do, all he did was drive me there. Don't get me wrong...I LOVED the party and it was a wonderful idea and I thank him for that but.....I wanted a card with hand prints and doodling from my kids and a card from him and a memorable gift that would last a lifetime and make me feel special would have been a bonus and made my day. I don't know.....I have always been able to say "LOOK WHAT BUBBA GAVE ME!" Not this year. Not for my 30th. Not when I'm feeling sorry for myself. I didn't even get a 'Honey, I'm so sorry I didn't get you a special gift but since we are building this house I really don't have the extra money' OR ' Hon, I'm so sorry your gift didn't get here in time but it will be here soon' or a simple "I'm sorry I didn't get you anything." I don't know, I'm here with my head hanging low and a heavy heart. I will get over it......
Monday, July 14, 2008
Today is...
my 30th birthday. Do I feel any different......no. It is a bit depressing to enter my thirty's but I can't stop time so I will just deal with it!
Friday was my surprise birthday party and it was wonderful. Judie and Sally did a wonderful job. I know Judie worked her butt off big time! She came back from New Mexico Thursday evening and had to get all the food and decorations ready. Sally got off early Friday and helped prepare the trays. Everything turned out wonderful and I am very thankful! I loved it!!!! Saturday was Cohen's party and it was fun! I think he had a good time even though he wanted to throw money in the fountain instead of play putt putt it was fun. I can't believe he is TWO! Time has really flown by, you know! Kinley is 5 months old and is cutting her second tooth! I can see it perfectly under her skin it just needs to break through so she will feel better. She was SUPER fussy yesterday. Poor girl! I couldn't get a thing done around the house. It really needs my attention - BIG TIME! Misty and I went to lunch at Cheddars yesterday and that was really nice! Thanks for asking me Mist!!!! My sisters were in for my birthday so I got to visit with them some!!! I miss them so much and I really wish we lived closer!
One thing I can say about today is....I'm tired! I wish I could sleep for about 2 or 3 hours! I fell asleep pumping earlier and I seldom do that. I slept all night, surprisingly, 5:30 just came WAAAAYYY toooo fast this morning! I was late getting ready, and to work, oops. I was feeding the cat when I heard the clock chime 8 times! That hurried me up big time. I usually leave around 7:20 or 7:30. Oh well. That's all for now!
Friday was my surprise birthday party and it was wonderful. Judie and Sally did a wonderful job. I know Judie worked her butt off big time! She came back from New Mexico Thursday evening and had to get all the food and decorations ready. Sally got off early Friday and helped prepare the trays. Everything turned out wonderful and I am very thankful! I loved it!!!! Saturday was Cohen's party and it was fun! I think he had a good time even though he wanted to throw money in the fountain instead of play putt putt it was fun. I can't believe he is TWO! Time has really flown by, you know! Kinley is 5 months old and is cutting her second tooth! I can see it perfectly under her skin it just needs to break through so she will feel better. She was SUPER fussy yesterday. Poor girl! I couldn't get a thing done around the house. It really needs my attention - BIG TIME! Misty and I went to lunch at Cheddars yesterday and that was really nice! Thanks for asking me Mist!!!! My sisters were in for my birthday so I got to visit with them some!!! I miss them so much and I really wish we lived closer!
One thing I can say about today is....I'm tired! I wish I could sleep for about 2 or 3 hours! I fell asleep pumping earlier and I seldom do that. I slept all night, surprisingly, 5:30 just came WAAAAYYY toooo fast this morning! I was late getting ready, and to work, oops. I was feeding the cat when I heard the clock chime 8 times! That hurried me up big time. I usually leave around 7:20 or 7:30. Oh well. That's all for now!
Thursday, July 10, 2008
The past few days...
I haven't posted since last Wednesday! Geez! I've been flexed at work due to low census, Friday was a holiday and my kids were sick Monday and Tuesday. Kinley had croop. Poor little girl! I HATED her being sick. I had to take her to the on call doctor Saturday morning so I didn't get to go to the Davis family reunion in Brownwood. Bubba took the boys, they had a good time. Anyway Kinley is still a bit stuffy at times but she is doing better.
Caleb woke up Tuesday morning about 4:30 am with a tummy ache. He started throwing up and had diarrhea all morning, it finally stopped at lunch time. Poor kid. I felt sooooo bad for him. He spend yesterday morning with my mom and I got off at lunch so I got him then. He is better! Whiny but better!
I got my hair cut yesterday too!!!! I LOVE IT!!! It is super short, Bubba isn't a fan and Caleb doesn't like it. That is because he Loves to play with my hair when he is falling asleep so he wants it long. Cohen likes it and Kinser just looked at me and smiled. She knew something was different! So far everyone at work loves it too. I just wanted to look 'fixed' I guess more my new age instead of messy hair or pony tail with whispies flying all over, you know. I wanted to look 'done'. After all I am turning tttttthhhhhirty on Monday. Lord help me. I needed an old lady haircut to go with my age....heee heee! It isn't an old lady haircut by any means but it is super short! That's all for now!
Caleb woke up Tuesday morning about 4:30 am with a tummy ache. He started throwing up and had diarrhea all morning, it finally stopped at lunch time. Poor kid. I felt sooooo bad for him. He spend yesterday morning with my mom and I got off at lunch so I got him then. He is better! Whiny but better!
I got my hair cut yesterday too!!!! I LOVE IT!!! It is super short, Bubba isn't a fan and Caleb doesn't like it. That is because he Loves to play with my hair when he is falling asleep so he wants it long. Cohen likes it and Kinser just looked at me and smiled. She knew something was different! So far everyone at work loves it too. I just wanted to look 'fixed' I guess more my new age instead of messy hair or pony tail with whispies flying all over, you know. I wanted to look 'done'. After all I am turning tttttthhhhhirty on Monday. Lord help me. I needed an old lady haircut to go with my age....heee heee! It isn't an old lady haircut by any means but it is super short! That's all for now!
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
OH CLEANING AND LAUNDRY FAIRIES!!!!
I call on you for help! Please have my house cleaned and laundry done when I get home! Thanks so much! I totally appreciate it! I did the dishes already. Thanks again.
I would like to know how people get their laundry done. I mean all of it. I always have laundry to do and it makes me CRAZY! I don't know what to do. I don't want to do laundry EVERY day, I have other things to do also. UGH!!! Yesterday, I folded the same load of laundry 3 times because Cohen kept running thru it! Made me crazy!!!! It was my fault for folding it on the floor but I was tired of standing. Caleb was trying to help, he would put his stuff away which was wonderful. I gotta run.
I would like to know how people get their laundry done. I mean all of it. I always have laundry to do and it makes me CRAZY! I don't know what to do. I don't want to do laundry EVERY day, I have other things to do also. UGH!!! Yesterday, I folded the same load of laundry 3 times because Cohen kept running thru it! Made me crazy!!!! It was my fault for folding it on the floor but I was tired of standing. Caleb was trying to help, he would put his stuff away which was wonderful. I gotta run.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
My little girl is growing up!!!
Kinley got her first tooth!!!!! She is 4 and half months old, it's too early but she is in a hurry I guess! I couldn't believe it! I noticed Sunday, while nursing she would bite down but I thought she was just finishing up and playing around but I know now she was cutting a tooth! OOOhhhhh, my baby!!!!!! It is her lower right incisor. It is so tiny and cute! I tried to take a picture but when I pulled her lip back she would cover the tooth with her tongue and it just didn't work. I will try when it sticks out a bit farther. Sooo cute!
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