Disappointed

Well today I'm feeling a little blue. Yesterday was my 30th birthday and I didn't get anything from my husband. I know I sound like a spoiled brat but it is eating me up inside. He didn't even get me a card or one for the kids to sign! That really makes me sad. I feel like I must not matter enough for him to take the time to pick out a stinking card!!!
This morning he was looking at some pictures I printed from my party for my sister and he said "You know there isn't one of you and me" I looked at him and said "hmmm, I'll put that right next to my birthday card!" He looked at me and said "KIM, YOU WILL GET A CARD" to which I replied "Yesterday was my birthday!" If he gets me a card now, it will not be the same because it will be obvious he did it only because I said something. He could have given me one at my party like every one else, he could have given me one yesterday but he didn't...it's not like this snuck up on him. It just didn't matter enough....
I'm sure I sound horrible to anyone reading this but he has ALWAYS made a big deal of birthdays and given me something great and this year he did head up a surprise birthday party but he just told people what to do, all he did was drive me there. Don't get me wrong...I LOVED the party and it was a wonderful idea and I thank him for that but.....I wanted a card with hand prints and doodling from my kids and a card from him and a memorable gift that would last a lifetime and make me feel special would have been a bonus and made my day. I don't know.....I have always been able to say "LOOK WHAT BUBBA GAVE ME!" Not this year. Not for my 30th. Not when I'm feeling sorry for myself. I didn't even get a 'Honey, I'm so sorry I didn't get you a special gift but since we are building this house I really don't have the extra money' OR ' Hon, I'm so sorry your gift didn't get here in time but it will be here soon' or a simple "I'm sorry I didn't get you anything." I don't know, I'm here with my head hanging low and a heavy heart. I will get over it......